Last Day....

Technically today is the last day of school. Tomorrow the students come in from 11-1 for a final assembly.  We pass out awards, congratulate the seniors on a job well done, listen to the choir, and generally close out the school year. This is the hardest time of year for me. I am not good at good-byes, even temporary ones.

8:00AM: The first class comes in for their final grades. I remember all of the anxiety I felt at this exact time 312 days ago. Except unlike on September 1, these students today are so dear to me now...no longer strangers. Yes, they have irritated me and complained to me (and about me, I'm sure), but I care so much for them. Never again, will this group of students, with this particular dynamic, and with their particular skills fill these four walls. After the exams are passed out there is a lingering few that remain. Some give hugs, others rush out to Summer, and some quietly with great intention in their eyes say "Thank you."

I never really know if I am doing a great job.  By great job, I mean knowing that I have served their needs, challenged their minds, pushed them to commit deeply to their learning, and guided and supported them along the way.  Praise is not necessarily something I am seeking to confirm if my job was well done. In fact, a small confirmation that this year was a success to at least one of my students occurred. She came in, smiling, and I turned her exam back to her. It was a B+.  I thought she would not be happy, that she would be frustrated by this grade. Instead, she gave a little "hoot" and said "Yay I did it!" Yes, you did I thought.  And....maybe I did too (a little).

The walls are bare now. And, I sit in the classroom alone. Next year will be so different. New kids, new curriculum, new classes, and new teachers will wait for me in September. But, now it is time to reflect and think about what possible goals I should set for next year. Next, is time to say good-bye, pack up the few items on my desk, and finally say hello to Summer...